"I am collecting beautiful objects. A pair of shoes. Some glasses. A telephone. Typewriter. They are made from wood and felt, with apparent stitches. Their delicate and finished appearance is friendly, and they are quiet. Stephanie made them and I will expose them in an exhibition. There's this amazing blanket. It's thick red felt with big white stitches. Wild animals are running in it. She smiles. I bend over a rock to try to reach her. But my stomach, compressed, hurts."